“They don’t make movies about your kind of success.”
No, we write books.
Coming this year.
Early into adulthood, people I spoke to about my history would make comments like, “Well, you don’t show it.”
I attributed that result to having developed in spite of a childhood of neglect and instability, but as the years passed, I couldn’t put my own questions about that on the shelf. I habitually tracked my own internal states, annotated my thoughts, and edited my live responses to others before making them. Yet, as I kept optimizing, I saw that I was still not in sync with many people at all.
I have updated my assumption with a theory—that the way my mind and body staved off an insurgence, rather than complied with it, was an adaptation.
Reorganism is a map of that resistance, written from inside the machine.
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I will the machine. 