This is a follow-up post to
The Closing Argument: Trans-Missouri 300.
“We’re all dirt,” Aaro said during our 62-mile ride yesterday, where I was still fussing with comfort issues on a new (sponsored) bike I’ve had for a week. It was the humble version of “We’re all made of star stuff,” which was part of the inspiration behind my nebulous tattoos.
And the acknowledgement of the fact that every one of us will return to the earth one day, that this body is merely borrowed, and everything we do with it is dress-up, is why I have a difficult time feeling legitimate in a sport that requires me to push this rental to such extremes. I gravitate toward hard- but is it hard enough to matter?
This summer has been a life-overhaul. I’m starting college in January as a first-time student. I’ve essentially been adopted as an adult. I officially said goodbye to the history of abuse that made that necessary. I’m back to working in a horse barn in the meantime and the environment doesn’t match the cut-throat, cliquey, energy-siphoning ones I moved to Missouri for to begin with. In other words, I have met real-community.
Not a pretend one.
The change in my ability to feel safe is exponential, and riding from the “Welcome to Kansas” sign to the edge of Illinois is both a celebratory act and an experiment to see how much more solid I am finally having, and accepting, support even if I’m undertrained. The new bike is also a literal marker of this- I’m not under-equipped anymore.
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I don’t have a lot of time to write right now while I prep for this, but here is what you need to know, and how you can be involved.
I plan to start my time-trial in Kansas City, KS on the evening of October 4th, with a goal to finish in Alton, IL within 26 hours.
My resources are limited, so I have created a GoFundMe to help cover the essential costs of having a support car track me across the state (Link here- Fundraiser by Genna Brock : Trans-Missouri 300 Support Crew Funding). I have never had this advantage before, and having one this time will eliminate the psychological stress of self-supporting an effort like this.
Once that barrier is cleared, I will finalize details with Trackleaders, who will be providing live tracking for this pursuit so that you can follow me for the entire ride. This also means that at any time, anyone can meet me out on course and ride with me for a while if you choose.
And to be honest, I kind of need that. I’ve spent too much time in this dirt feeling like I couldn’t have that kind of connection.
We’ll talk again soon.
I will the machine. 